Finally have the time and energy to write a new blog...

So, this week is spring break which means I've finally gotten a decent amount of sleep and am feeling refreshed. This has turned out to be another very buy semester. I decided to take 18 units again and I'm tutoring part time at a local high school so thing have been very busy. Before you classify this schedule a being formulated out of stupidity and ignorance let me explain. It may sound controversial but in my opinion I'm preparing for the future. Who knows what the Lord has planned for the future and they way I feel the better I learn how to handle a busy schedule now the better I will be able to manage time in the future. In essence, I'm "working out the kinks", haha. Things have gone pretty well though. I was sick last week and had to fight through three big tests. Now I've had the weekend to recooperate and am feeling much better. One big problem I've had this semester is feeling alone pretty frequently. In other semesters, especially the last couple at Master's, by God's grace I had a solid group of friends to hang out with on the weekends. I've gotten pretty close with other fencers in the fencing club here at Baylor but I've found the weekends to be especially problematic. I try to avoid partying and drinking, not just because I'm underage but I feel that these things are a waste of time and typically lead to sinful activities. Most of the students here either go home on the weekends or party so I've had a tough time finding my niche. I've been thinking since the beginning of the semester that maybe I just need a girlfriend to be in a close relationship but lately I've figured that it would be more productive to get involved with a larger group of people as I have neither the time, resources, or energy to genuinely offer that kind of friendship to a girl. I want to be ready when God brings that opportunity though :) I wasn't aware of the many different club sports they have here at Baylor. I'll be very interested in joining the ultimate and cycling clubs in the fall Lordwilling as that should be the beginning of my last year of college. Spiritually, things have been just okay. I've been wasting time struggling to find an identity, outside of being a Christian. I'm very comfortable with just being a Christian and trying to enjoy life, but other people, especially one of the non-Christian guys I work with, has tried to find my "weaknesses" and exploit them. He constantly probes my mind, trying to make me want things that I don't have, (i.e. a girlfriend, a car, partying, drinking) and makes fun of me for having a sensitive conscience. My only comeback is that I'm a Christian and am just trying to do what's right. I know that I'm wasting my time when I try to find out "who I am" outside of Christ because that's all that I am. I'm sure that this will always be a struggle and ask God's grace to make up for my social incapabilities for His glory. I sure try and wish I could be more involved in the lives of other people but am confident that the closer I draw to the Lord the more He will open up those opportunities. I'll try to write more blogs this week with all of this downtime!

God bless,

Josh

(Psalm 73, Good, encouraging stuff by J.R.: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kggiAqrFD1s)