Monday, September 28, 2009

Do I really belong?

Well, I find myself in a very familiar position. Struggling big time at the beginning of a semester. Clueless about what my future holds. Very dissapointed and trying to understand how and why I always seem to be in some sort of trouble. I don't mean anyone any harm. Maybe I don't have a tunnel vision perspective on life and lock myself in my dorm room to study every day after classes. But I don't drink, smoke, or flirt around with girls everyday either. I'm obviously not distracted. My biggest entertainment comes from playing sports and watching football on the weekends. My favorite part of the day is tutoring kids at a local highschool because it gives me the opportunity to help them with what I know which gives me the greatest, undescribable joy. Why am I so bad at school at the beginning of every semester then? Can't life ever give a guy a break? I have honest intentions. I'm really trying..... Though I always end up in the same position one thing is there to comfort me. The Lord has always brought me through these quirky, horrid circumstances. I don't need perfect grades to plan for the future. I need to have a heart that desires to please the Lord and lives a life reflecting that desire. As Micah 6:8 says, "He has told you, O man, what is good; and what does the LORD require of you but to do justice, to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God?". I'm a mortal human being, made of dust with limited strength. The Lord will give me what I need, regardless of what circumstances suggest.

May we all find peace, strength, joy, help, and trust only in Him,

Josh

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